Will You Play What I Play?

alan wake
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So I'm looking forward to my husband coming home. Once he settles in I know he'll spend some time catching up with all his gamer buddies and I'll just have to be patient. I'll eventually get the other boxes fixed and we'll get our old set up going again. I get the living room, he gets the bedroom. We have big screens in both rooms so it's not like he's getting the rough end of the stick. Plus the couch is broken. I'm the one on the rough end here.

One of the biggest things I'm looking forward to is together game time. I love to snuggle up to my husband and watch him play. I've always been that way, but not quite like I am with him. Normally I'd be the one playing and someone would be watching the storyline unfold or helping me unfold it. Single player games with a great story line are so much fun to share. But I get a special extra something with my husband that I didn't get before. I can't exactly put my finger on it, but it's definitely something I can't deny. When I watch my husband play I swoon.

I love to play scary games, but when they're too scary (I can't believe I'm admitting this either.) I let Rigid take over and I quite literally hang off his arm. With every step he takes into the game, every turn he makes into the scary unknown I inch closer and closer and closer until I'm practically crawling over him.

That's what it was like with Dead Space. I couldn't get enough of it, but I couldn't play it myself even after he walked me through most of the game. I tried to pick it up several times and I did eventually get over the fear, but I never finished it and since he's been gone I refused to pick it up even once.

What do I go and do? I buy Alan Wake instead. Sure it's going to be a thriller and a little scary, but I was just looking forward to this great mystery. This wonderful psychological thriller that I could immerse myself in and while away the hours until my husbands eventual return. I played it. All by myself. Mostly in the day time and occasionally at night. If I was brave enough. I eventually stopped, first because I’m going to have to sit and watch my husband play it eventually and second because it’s true I’m a little scared. Sympatheticmyas was right, I am chickenshit.

Yesterday I admitted to my Xbox friends that I was too scared to play Alan Wake by myself and this is what they said:

cdpanth3r: ok...im confused...…

Mega Apocalypse: whats allen wake???…

Warcow: lets kick his ass lol

PunishingTruth: yes i would agree

mototombo: Yes, I believe you

STUNTMAN025: COME ON REALLY OR UR BULLSHITHING ME.

tc mcqueen 58th: no

RetroZoon: i'll be right over!…

Warcow: lol yea kinda

sympatheticmyas: chicken shit...lmfao…

Warcow: lol never played it…

LCfiredog239 : huh

So I confused a few people, but it was fun seeing what my friends would say. People either believed me, didn’t believe me or offered to come over and help. Well, I’m not sure if I even believe myself but I’m sure if everyone knew my husband had been gone for over 3.5 months they would totally understand. Forget about the fact that I’ve never EVER been alone in my life. Phfff…PHFF…*sigh*

I can’t wait for him to come home though. I know better than to expect him to get into the same things that I’ve been into these last few months, but I hope we are able to set some time aside and enjoy this game together. I’m really looking forward to that.